Mixed feelings

 Hello guys, my first blog in English!  Don't have the time and motivation to check all of the words haha, so Please don't make fun off me!

Last time I have told you That I had work, work as a traffic controller with my buddy Gemma. Well, things are a little bit different now. Gemma and I are enployeed with 4 agencies, but none off them is calling us for real work. It's casual, so we have to wait.. I was really happy, but now I'm tired, tired of the stress about money. The past few weeks I spend a lot of times in library. Every time we get work, sign up with an agency an every time they let us down. They say ' monday you have work' when monday arrives, they say ' thursday we have work for you' every time.. So now, I'm at That moment That I really want to go away. I want to have a fresh start and get out of these negative emotions. I love australia and the people, but they are to relaxed sometimes. We have to call them every day to ask for work, we have to push them. In Holland it would not be professional to let people wait That long and say you're having work and then just don't call anymore. I'm not enjoying my time here anymore in Sydney. 

And also, it is getting colder here. Yeah sorry people. But I was getting used to 35/40 degrees the last few weeks/ months. My body could not handle That and I had heathrash. But now, the last 2 weeks it is around 20, rain and windy. And yeah, I am running in a long trouser, long shirt and my jumper. My body is not used to make me warm anymore. In Holland I would walk in shorts and t shirts with 20 degrees haha.

On friday, 24 february I had a trial at a little cute coffeehouse in north Sydney. I had to work from 8-2. It's to show your skills ect. I got 50 dollars That day, normally a trial is not paid. In this coffeehouse you can get coffee, Breakfast and lunch. It's funny to work in a different land, I really enjoyed it, everything is new but the ozzies are hard to understand sometimes. Like ' two flat white'. They say it like ' two fat wine' so yeah, hell know what That means? I thought I had a really good day, so I waited the weekend with happy feelings. I was confident.  On monday I waited the whole day to get a text, but I did not get it. So I texted around 6 if he could give me an update. He texted me back That I did not get the job because he Needed one for a long time. He knew the whole day, but no time to tell me earlier. So That was really shit, and my unhappy feelings came again. Texted my dad, what to do. So yesterday night I decided to go to Queensland, cairns. Looking for farmwork. In Queensland is a lot of farmwork, so I hope I Find something soon. But staying in Sydney is not an option.

Now I'm packing my back, and yeah, That is hard.. I have not looked at it for the last 2 months, so I hope everything fits. I'm Excited to leave, to get to the warm weather, meet new people and see new things, a new adventure! But on the other hand, I made really good friends in this hostel and I'm sad That I have to leave them. But I know That I Will meet them again, plans for home are already made. Trips to england, poland and germany!! Cambridge lodge hostel is in my heart ❤️. 
Love you all,
Liz